To scream again

by the pain

So it happened.

I didn't cry for a long time...for anything else but death. Death of people I know.

I cry right now. Because someone has died. Was it me? I feel like that. Someone left me. Someone so important.... She's still here but not for me anymore. She killed everything I loved just today. I knew it for some time already. But today it's definitive. I am going to cry as bitch.

Girl I really wanted you on my side. I love you. I didn't want you to... I just didn't want you to leave. You did. I hate this the most. I am always asking why is this happening again. It hurt so much, you know..?

 

This love (Yea, yea, yea)
(I gotta holla about my girl full of ''mazing') [note: amazing?]
(Yea, yea, yea) Let's do it ch'all

Yea, it's really taking me from high-low
Let's see, where should I begin?
The club on Friday night yo
Just having a good'ol time yo
The music's banging; people's like 'word'
But there was one that caught my eye, so I just had to get closer to her
She's super-fly yo, I must confess some
I'm thinking, 'Damn I need her' with a lovin' gesture
I'm about to hit her with a, 'How you've been'
'You don't remember me?' 'Hey!'
Instead I'll stick with the traditional, 'Hi, what's you're name?'
I be the GD, I'm a cool gentleman
Check out my melody, the flavor straight like your cinnamon
Feel the adrenaline; I'm pumpin' for your honey lovin' [note: HAHAHA... honey lovin']
It's all about the two of us getting together, now that's what I'm saying

Chorus:
This love got me high, I'm soarin'
Baby girl, you know I live for it
And I'll never ever hurt you
Without you, there's no life in me
This love got me proud to show it
Ain't no doubt, I'ma keep on holding
And it's on til forevermore, well baby
On and on, you know we have each other's back yo

(Whoa) Baby got them looks so deadly
And every time I think about her, man I get chills
Blessed with her beauty, yea that's for real
You know that's she's my only love
My only love baby

(Yea) She's steady by me
And no one phasin' mommy
She holds her game and that's the way she fully gains control
You ain't never wanna test her
It's surely for the best yo
Unless you wanna mess around, don't say I never warned ya
These type of girls, they goin' everyday (everyday)
It just don't stop, it comes like every way (every way)
My baby got it locked, and she came to bless me, yes we
Gon' definitely reach our destiny

Repeat Chorus

(Whoa) Baby got them looks so deadly
And every time I think about her, man I get chills
Blessed with her beauty, yea that's for real
You know that's she's my only love
My only love baby

(Yea)Come girl now take my hand (Oh)
Let us love until the end ('til the end)
Never gonna let you go
Baby we are both so deep in this (No, no, no, no)
Not a second I regret (Oh)
Gonna cherish all of it (All of it)
So amazing glad I found ya
Got me crazy for your loveliness
Once again...

Repeat Chorus

This love ....

Hey J, look at me
After you left, it ain't the same
I'm not what I used to be
It hurts so much you know?
I need you girl
Always, one-time
This love

(g-dragon - this love)

 

 

 

you know what's the worse? you make my really favourite thing crap... you really did. that's probably not your fault. I just.... I can't take it. I am sorry.

I am broken. Again. What a sad story.

How many times in this eternal life I have to die to be born again? How many times I have to promis I won't believe again? I won't fall in love again? I won't try to stay on anyone's side again? To live my life. To stay all alone? To fight alone? To survive all alone..? How many times?

Seriously. I have the power. After all. I know I do. I am just broken right now. It hurts I am not sure why. I just hate people leaving you know. I can't take it easy. Like everyone do.

"We have the right to live in peace
You must fight for what you keep
If what you keep holds truth inside
Stand up, defend, or lay down and die"  (pod -freedom fighters)

 

It physicaly hurts. It really do. I feel sick. Very sick.
Please, Lord, I know I have said I can take it but can I? It's really terrible feeling right now...

Sorry for so "emo" shits again. This time... This time I am trying to fight. I was..strong. I really was.

I feel like I did something very wrong last time and this is the hell I have to live in :D Do you believe in reincarnation? I do. And I feel like that. But I know I am just...not strong enough. Too sensitive. Oversensitive. I try to own them. Those..people. I try to...promise to stay by my side forever because I can't live knowing they will left me behind... They did. They do. They will be... doing this again and again. Still the same story.

Let's end it here. I have no more energy left.